It's been ages since I last updated I was so busy since skool started this week >_< from saturday and till yesterday I didn't  have a peaceful night sleeping on one of these nights I woke for the morning prayer and when I finished I  rushed to put my head on the pillow and sleep but this happiness didn't complete when I heard our maid talking so loud "she was actually thinking loud in this way" and I just had 2 hours to sleep and then I have to wake up for skool so I thought of playing a DVD cuz I didnt want to hear her loud thinking okay lol enough talking about my sleepless night!

  I misss the rain so much cant wait until winter comes   now matter how blurry is the view I still wanna see all this will lead me to where?  I need to force my self to cry I need to cry to melt that mountain of pain that I have been ignoring for a while.. crying is always the treat of all that wish me the luck

AT the end  all the old journals of august will go over here

{message:it's always different to be with you guyz}

{22|august|2005}                                       {quote:أبعد عن الشر وغنيله}

on saturday I asked de rosa and dubai's girl to come over to my home and devilish wont be for sure with us there cuz they already think she is still abroad :p .my plans me and devilish went okay about not telling them that she is back to country but sadly dubai's girl was going to travel  but our surprise party still went on.

 de rosa came and we started talking and talking until we stopped because we heard this sound and I had to pretend that am shocked about this moving thing in the box. so we went to see what's up with that box and then when went devilish jumped out from the box and she was out of her breath *siging so loud* she looked like these kind of  box with a teddy that suddenly just pops out and de rosa went and hugged her she actually took time to disgust the idea that devilish is back and yeah de rosa sorry for letting ur heart beat this way!

الله يرحمك بوخليفة و يدخلك أعلى الجنات ياااارب ابغي أوصفك بالحروف لكن يعجز عن وصوفك الحرف  ياأبويه زايد 

   I was going to let it this lady buss off: p so I can take some photos of my sister playing on the piano but I go a lecture about my attitude from my mum

Dubai's Girl: enjoy ur trip *hugz* sweety and u missed that day it was a blast .

maithooh: I miss you so bad cousin:(

Shmily: luvvv ya sisterrr

style: wish u  the best and here is a msg for u:p

miss dolls and adaydreamer: am happy to see ya around in my webie:)

de rosa + devilish: our day is tomorrow;)

uaeyah: I wish u are doing fine now you are missed girl!

{message:Thanks for everyone who wrote me a comment or signed my guest box it means aloooot to me }

{19|august|2005}                                       {quote:إذا نطق السفيه فلا تجبه}

  me: i wanna sign what I ordered on the room please                                                          the garcon : errrm lemme see if u can sign  me: can I sign pardon me? am an adult for god sake!                                                           me: holding my nerve and signing this paper

I wished I signed that piece of paper on his face anyhow am trying to get to a point right now which is alot of people think that am a child who doesn't know anything and even to sign a damn paper its not a satiation that will let me go this mad but this going so over limitation and if I said am a student in a university and i ll be in my 2nd year u will this face :O that's not a bad thing as my mum says but what is awful to get this treatment from people because they think you are kid and if I was a kid doesnt that mean I don't have feelings too. this awl reminded me of high skool when me and some girls gathered around and kept on talking for a second I didn't hear anything but this creepy silence and that look that pointed with her eyes right to her friend and said in her looks "we have a kid over there"or it was practically have been said right my face understand .I may be even older than them but I dun act so over age like they do.  I always understood what grown up have said  no matter what code they used and even before they wanted  talk I knew what they will talk. because am not that talkative and  innocent I seem to them that I dun get anything :p they  think rule with there stupid talks and blabbing about there future they are gonnaa have and they will be that shinning star keep on shinning babe. it's soon time to prove to alot that I can  be a shining star but I d rather be  the moon itself;)   I never hated you in that moments but I hated my self . am sure if I have been through that moments again I would have changed and proved alot but we learn from our past to make a better and a brighter future:)

so let me talk about something else yeah I went for a visit to the emirates palace after nagging on my parents to take me there. its marvelous I took millions of shots over there ill post the rest of them in my next post stay stunned ^_~

{message: your words can make the tears fall but your silence breaks the heart }

 {10|august|2005}                                       {quote:بو طبيع ما أيوز عن طبعه}   

few weeks back I was walking and just wishing to have something actually just to see it  so for a second I paused isn't this my wish I was just wishing for? thoughts were racing in my mind and I said to my self omg  it was even there before I wish for it!! it was fastening feeling ..god wanted to show me that my wishes can come true this simple ; I should have deep hope and ignore my feelings that sometimes says it wont happen and if didn't happen god will give me something better in heaven inshalla:)

  that what's  I have done me with my lil sister few days ago I have some ideas that pops in my mind but am so lazy to apply these ideas:p welcome back de rosa enjoy the rest of  your vacation with moodhesh! :p    I miss this kid so mucch I keep on watching her video over and over I miss her sound her smile everything about her :( actually I miss baby sitting my two cousins

{message: its nice to imagine with ya dubai's girl *winkies*}                     

{15|august|2005}                                       {quote:الداااااااااااااايم شديد}  

   I had this dream that am posting this picture in my journal so now am posting it again :p am seriously blessed to have such friends to annoy with my dreams and the crazy thoughts that run in to my mind:D when I first woke u I had this dream that am asking devilish shall I do this or not? so I called her  she didn't pick and i called again and woke her up!*alot of ppl hate me for doing that i swear lol* sharing is caring isn't it right ;)? Vision is the art of seeing what is invisible to others. Jonathan Swift Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely. The Land Before Time Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.Carl Gustav Jung

checcccck my two new wallpapers it will look fab on ur desktop believe me:D

{message:misss ya so much de rosa:( }

{6|august|2005}                                       {quote:الحقران أيقطع المصران}                       

this gold chain or whatever they call it was a gift from my grandma "allah yr7mhah" from 18 years and am planning to give it my daughter one day. when she passed away I was about 6 or 7 years I don't remember crying  I guess I was waiting for her to come back . my mum told me when she used to go out for work I took  all my toys and sat with my grandma and once my mum came back I took my toys and when back to my mum  and my grandma use to get pissed on me she said" I sit with u all the day and when ur mum comes u leave me all alone" hehe I luv her.*allah yr7mhah o yr7am mwtana*

when  memories went back to my childhood I remembered something  listen to me "once upon a time when I was a kid and am still a kid anyhow I was playing in the back yard with my cycle not only this but trying to get balanced without the two wheels on the side I was still training by that time until I heard my two brothers shouting .so I went to see what is the matter and I saw my older holding a hammer in his hand and my other 2nd older brother holding a  backsaw "mnshar" and they were saying something like that" hey bet me if u can etc etc". after seeing them I didn't go and tell my mum no I went to continue the tanning on my cycle I think I didn't knew it will go this seriously lol  more than that how smart I was :p anyways while tanning at last I got it right yippie I was just about to enjoy my victory until that sound of crying interrupted that moment clearly  it was my 2nd older brother . he was practically been banged into his head with the hammer by my older brother .He was bleeding so bad and they took him right to the hospital and el 7emdelah he was fine after the bleeding stopped . he still had the scarf of the hammer on his head."after this story I don't think so u wanna listen to more about my childhood :p

{message: have a safe trip cuzy you will be missed}                                                             

{3|august|2005}                                          {quote:تتعد الأسباب والموت واحد}