{22|janurary|2007}                                                      {quote:ماتعرف قدري لين ما تياور غيري}

Yes, I disappeared for a long time and I would not blame that or my studies nor anyone. I was in phase clearing my thoughts out and  mind. I learned how to control them and not let them control me thoughts and its amazing how can you make thoughts obey me. that most terrifying time when thoughts haunted  late at night when everyone fell out sight.

and I wrote this poem down;

I cannot fall asleep

Cause once I do

Thoughts haunt me

It Grips my soul

And shatter my tears

With a heavy lift I struggle to breath

Screams for rescues

Silence I seem to utter

I struggle to carry my self away

But something pulls me to the cross way

I surrender for thoughts to wound pain in

And crave it with capitals

Wishing anyone would see

I cannot fall asleep

Cause haunting thoughts

Keep on rewinding

In my head

Promising not to leave me

Unless am dead

but later on I knew how insane can thoughts can lead me especially late at night so I came to solution sleep early read m3wthat and if I couldn't sleep I would play any DVD to play my thoughts away and it works perfectly fine!

as I promised here is my work as I promised to show hehe my first and drawing that am so very proud of and my painting that am not proud of:p

 here is another promise  I ll be posting more often now.

{message: dxb girl, creativa ,dont look,and maithooh thanks for asking about my dusty blog}

{24|octobor|2006}                                                      {quote:وفيك البشر ما عوضوني}

this post is a special dedication to creativa~

happy eid to all of you may allah bring endless joy to your hearts.

I seriously was laughing sarcastically at my website title which is "when her heart and mind talks" because its not a place where I would talk freely and what is more funny even when i write in my personal dairy I cannot write what exactly I feel...because I don't wanna see anyone coming across my dairy and read what is in my mind..or i just dun like to shout my thoughts out.... its insane but that's the sour truth

NOW, I ll stop being negative .. am not doing bad in my art class after all I thought I ll screw up since I always believed I don't have the ability to draw but errm am at a very good standard and am satisfied with my self really but I need to push my self further cuzz I know I can do better than that.

I need to go work on my endless projects inshalla in my next post i ll show my work until then enjoy ur 3eeed.

{message: endless thanks..}

{28|september|2006}                                                      {quote:اليوووووع كافر}

Ramdan Karem to all of you. May it be a blessing upon everyone.

and yeah I entered the collage arts.. lol not as beautiful as is sound. For seconds I thought giving up and go to my second choice IT. But I was like come on am not perfect am here to learn and I will not let hating a teacher let me or even because its hard .. simply for the reason that am not quitter "yes am not"

 if u ever thought of entering collage of art you will face sleepless night and when you will sleep nightmares will haunt you. Back pain because of the stuff that you carry around. Holstein about what the teacher said and drawing an applying it all the time you will definitely will go nuts :p

nuts it is am up to that what to do life is hard

wish me the best.

{message: f6oor jamel enjoy ur food!}