{22|janurary|2007}                                                      {quote:ماتعرف قدري لين ما تياور غيري}

Yes, I disappeared for a long time and I would not blame that or my studies nor anyone. I was in phase clearing my thoughts out and  mind. I learned how to control them and not let them control me thoughts and its amazing how can you make thoughts obey me. that most terrifying time when thoughts haunted  late at night when everyone fell out sight.

and I wrote this poem down;

I cannot fall asleep

Cause once I do

Thoughts haunt me

It Grips my soul

And shatter my tears

With a heavy lift I struggle to breath

Screams for rescues

Silence I seem to utter

I struggle to carry my self away

But something pulls me to the cross way

I surrender for thoughts to wound pain in

And crave it with capitals

Wishing anyone would see

I cannot fall asleep

Cause haunting thoughts

Keep on rewinding

In my head

Promising not to leave me

Unless am dead

but later on I knew how insane can thoughts can lead me especially late at night so I came to solution sleep early read m3wthat and if I couldn't sleep I would play any DVD to play my thoughts away and it works perfectly fine!

as I promised here is my work as I promised to show hehe my first and drawing that am so very proud of and my painting that am not proud of:p

 here is another promise  I ll be posting more often now.

{message: dxb girl, creativa ,dont look,and maithooh thanks for asking about my dusty blog}